books and more books

Literally read 8 books this weekend and bought around 14. I have an addiction and I think it is as powerful as crack. At least my new book buying trends are cheap. I go in to barnes and nobels or books a million and I just buy any book in clearance that looks like it could be interesting. I want to start writing my book but I am afraid that without my escape into the plots of novels my life outside of work along with the monotony of my job with come in to stark contrast and I will feel like I am dying on the inside. I have a problem where it is impossible for me to be pleased with anything ever because I am such a perfectionists that nothing and no one can live up to my high standards even myself. I am already having trouble getting out of bed most days, but perhaps if I write a book it will be enough distraction that I won't feel as worthless and bored all the time like I currently do.